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i am a biual female and have been having feelings for my professor, who is a . i don't want anything to happen between us (because i would never want her to put herself in a vulnerable position) but we are both social workers and all about emotional honesty. i am beating myself up for not going to on a aboard trip with her and something other students this summer. even though i know i can't afford it, i am mad with myself for not going because i would love to be overseas with her.